Brad Bellmore Gets a Life – 21
Paulo Coelho in his book The Zahir, makes the intriguing comment that what he would like on his headstone is: He died while he was still living.
This fascinates me. I want to live my life better. To get a life – a real one. As much as I whine about my prospects of such and my ineptitude at doing so, it has largely become an exercise in just that whining. In my mind, this blog is my grappling with the resolution to live life. My reality still has but flashes of this.
I am taking risks, learning new things, trying to make changes. BUT, they all feel superficial, surface, inadequate. Are they incremental deposit of faithful perseverance that will one day result in an impressive accrual some day? Or is it merely a little boy walking around in his daddy’s shoes to feel grown up?
I need to find some real risks, do something that takes real courage. But what?